The time draws near once again of your birthday. I reflect at this time, your granddaughter Isabella recently turned one. I set up for her birthday early in the morning 6am and it was the coldest, most windy day of the year. I tied butterflies all over a tree since there were no leaves and went inside and found flowers and your sewing kit with green ribbion which I used as leaves for the flowers. I really felt your precence with me that morning, the ribbon signified your precence. I prayed and felt so close to you. Age has taught me that I thought I could not go on without you but but the twenty plus years you taught me how to be a lady and a productive member to society. And the phrase which I treasure ''It is what it is'' I love you so much. I know today how lucky I am to have had a mother like you. You are truely missed.
It's taken me awhile to add my memory, as I could not decide which one. But my favorite one is the one I think best describes how I remember Aunt Nancy. One time, when we were little and the Briller's still lived on Long Island, my family was visiting theirs. I was so disapointed because it was raining, so I thought we couldn't swim in their pool. But Aunt Nancy let us go swimming even though it was raining! I still remember being in that pool. She was so cool to let us do that.
Well there are so many memories i could share, i try to hold back tears when i realize you are gone but we will meet again one day. I have thought of one memory that as a kid i took for granted and today i realize how much it meant. The day after Thanksgiving my mother would have my eldest brother set out the nativity set, she hand painted each one in the early 70's she was always so proud to display it. The day came when my brother went to college and the task was past down to me, she would clean and dust and i knew it was time to take the big brown box filled with carefully packed figures that she cared and loved. As time went by the paint looked old and she decided to paint new ones in a ceramics class that my mother myself and one of my sisters-in-law attened. We always went once a week to work on our ceramic pieces my mother took such pride in painting her works of art. When she was finished with the nativity set it painted in the most magnificant colors you could imagin, asure blues, opal whites truely painted with love... Today i truely understand what it is to be proud of what she made it was not that they were figurines it was what it stood for passing down traditions, true spirits of a holiday, lasting memories that i will keep with me the rest of my life and instill in my children. When i find myself sad and my heart feels heavy i think of my mother it gets me through my day thinking of years of memories i share with the lifes she has touched.